No News is NOT Good News...to me anyway

Sigh. Nothing. No new phone calls. NOTHING. NOTHING. NOTHING. I am patiently waiting. PATIENTLY.........yes, patiently...........Sigh.

A Reasonable Explaination

Tonight my dearest was a tad grumpy. As I was talking to her about her behavior, she tells me "I didn't take a nap today you know". Then she adds (while talking vigorously with her hands) "Taking a nap- good, Not taking a nap-bad, now do you see why I'm miserable?" Then to add insult to injury she asks "Do you know what miserable means?" I swear, it's one thing that I know she's smarter than me, but for her to know it?!?!?!?!!?

I Love "No-School" Days!

We had such a great day today, enjoying time together.

Gabi started the day by reading yesterday's paper.

After that, she took in a little indoor (aka in the house) soccer

And finally, we took her bowling for the first time. She had a BLAST! Truth be told, so did we!!

Too bad I have to go back to work tomorrow :( At least, Gabi and Daddy get to hang out together!

My Celebrity "Look-Alikes" ????

Why God Made Mom's- ala Gabi

I received a cute post today with questions that kids answered. I decided to quiz Gabi and post her responses. These are totally off the cuff, out of the mouth of a 3 year old- so some may make no sense......

1. Why did God make Mommies?
"Because you have to be my Mommy."

2. How did God make Mommy?
"With some tools, like cheeks and eyes."

3. What are Mommies made of?
"Cheeks hold up your lips so they won't fall down. If you didn't have cheeks your lips would fall off."

4. Why did God choose me as your Mommy and not another Mommy?
"Cause I wanted you." (my favorite answer)

5. What was Mommy like when she was a little girl?
"A Mommy girl, that's the only thing I know."

6. What did Mommy need to know about Daddy before she married him?
"Make sure he was at the right place, what he did, and that he wasn't a fighter when he got married."

7. Why did Mommy marry Daddy?
"because he was soooooo nice."

8. Who's the boss at our house?
"You." (aka Mommy)

9. What's the difference between Mommy and Daddy?
"Mommy's the boss, dad's not." (ok, maybe this is my favorite)

10. What does Mommy do in her free time?
"Go to college to spend money." (umm, the spending part is right....)

11. If you could change one thing about your mom, what would it be?
"You could have a plate on your head."

She's not placing

She is going to put the baby into foster care, in hopes of getting her back "in a few years." Sigh. I'm going to paste a happier post now..........

Nothing Yet

Haven't heard from anyone at STAR today. Sigh. Thought we'd know either way by now. I'm so sad. I wish my stupid heart and brain would stop trying to tell me that this is our child. She is NOT ours. Not yet. Maybe not ever.

tick tock tick tock tick tock

Putting it ALL out there......

Sigh. I hesitate to write this for a few reasons. First, I am afraid of jinxing "it"- although I KNOW it is NOT in my hands. God is in control, and He has a plan for us. Even though I sometimes allow myself to believe "if I just pray hard enough....." Anyway, I digress. Another reason that I hesitate before posting here about a potential match (oh, did I mention that WE ARE BEING PROFILED TOMORROW????) is that I know there are many of my "waiting com padres" out there. I wonder "what if we are being profiled for the 'same' baby, how would that be?" Well AGAIN-- DUH Teri, it's not up to us. It has little to do with us and everything to do with God's plan for us.
SOOOOOO---- today I sent an email to Michele and Sara about possibly "re-vamping" our profile with more of a focus on Howie and I as a couple, and less on the girls. Michele responded by asking me to call her today. Soooooo- I gave her a ring. After asking for her, Sara came to the phone. She apologized for "stealing" me from Michele, but indicated that she had my file on her desk and was about to call. WHAT?! She said there was a "baby girl born yesterday" and did I want to hear more. THOSE WORDS---"baby girl born yesterday"-- I have heard them ONCE before........about 3.5 years ago.
The baby is in Indiana- where there is currently a HUGE snowstorm. She is healthy, albeit tiny, weighing in at only "a little over 5 pounds." Oh, and yes WE are expecting a HUGE snowstorm tonight. They will be showing her as many as 4 profiles tomorrow. It's in God's hands....although, if anyone reading wants to say a prayer please pray for strength- strength for birthmom, for baby, for the family she chooses, and whether or not that is us, please pray for our strength as well.

Plane Story: Take Two

This morning I was telling Gram about the plane story as I dropped Gabi off for the day. Gabi, suddenly reminded about her airplane, asks "Mom, can you run home, get my plane, and run back here, real quick?" I explained to her that I couldn't because I would be late for work, but that she could bring it tomorrow. So she responds in her 40 year old voice (which she seems to prefer over the three year old one) "Yah, that makes sense."

Super Plane..........

Ok quick story, tonight Gabi was playing with a paper airplane and she asks me, "Mommy, do you have big breasts to fly this plane?" Howie and I looked at each other wondering what in the heck she was talking about. So she says more clearly this time "Big Breath, to fly this." - meaning could I blow on it to make it fly, I guess? My darling husband informed her that, yes, I had both.

A Freaky Daddy

Yesterday morning I had to work, but Howie had a snow day. He was outside snowblowing the driveway at about 6:30am for me to be able to get out. Gabi woke early and asked where I was going. She matter-of-factly informed me that I wasn't "allowed to leave until Daddy comes back in the house" because "Daddy gets really freaky about that- he doesn't like me in the house alone." Geesh, as if I do? Oh and more importantly, what makes my 3 year old daughter think she needs to keep my parenting on track??

A Boy With No Name....

Today, my beautiful nephew came into our world. He weighed in at 8#2.6 oz and is 22 inches long! He's a big boy!!! His parents are driving us CRAZY as they haven't decided on a name for this adorable creature.

Goodbye to a Mentor....

As I innocently read the paper this morning I was brought to my knees to see that my sixth grade teacher has passed away. She battled cancer for many years. She wasn't just a teacher. She was a friend. We shared the same birthday, and somehow that connection carried through so many years. I remember seeing her at the cancer walk a few years back. We were there for my Aunt, honoring her memory. She was there as a SURVIVOR! It was awesome to see that. I saw her not so long ago at our Dr. office. I could see that she was sick again. My heart ached for her. She still had that amazing smile that lights her whole face. She is part of the reason I am where I am today. She believed in me. She saw something inside of me, and nurtured me. I am a better person because of her. I wish I had told her this.